Sunday, 5 October 2008

'ONLY WORMS COME OUT WHEN IT'S RAINING'

BOBBLE THE WORM
Wormy wormy don't bring germy germy,
Wormy wormy just squirmy squirmy.
Over looked and often sattened,
the undergrowth bears witness to what has happened.
Beneath the surface they graft for gardens,
unlike us, we selfish no pardons.
They have a place just as we,
we cast them off because we can't see.
But down below, in the dark damp soil,
they work and sliver as birds peck to boil.
One day soon they'll have their day,
hanging from our flesh like bits of hay.
They will eat us too, when we sleep in bed,
and turn us like soil, just as we destroyed their loyal.

Friday, 3 October 2008

PASSING THOUGHTS

FEB 06:
I summon up my strength, he's coming. He's trained and mean. He looks great,I say to myself. I wonder in the short seconds that I have, just before he launches his attacks...what on earth am I doing here? In this ring, in a Thai boxing gym. Then I remind myself of the up and coming fight I have. O, that must be it.
POW!
Should have blocked that punch, or was it an elbow? I move round I hear the bigger lads telling him to take it easy with me, that bothered me. Remain focused Emsley, he will take your head off. My legs feel cold in this October weather, but it's my birthday month. I feel fit and strong and I remind myself yet again of how much effort I spend keeping healthy.
THUD CRUD!
I side step and give the Russian lad a jab, cross roundhouse. Our gloves are marinated in each others sweat...so what. He makes me look skinny in comparison, but I battle on. Three minutes Duane, and you'll be out of there. Then I think of who I am, and that I'm really sparring myself. Just as a Scorpion will stand it's ground against larger adversary's, I begin my combinations. Enaud Yelsme is here!
With the three minutes over I know I lost the round, even the pats of respect I don't feel. I get changed and walk to my car very pleased that I conquered myself and my fears. And suffice to say that I went on to win my Kickboxing inter club.

'HERE, KITTY KITTY'


'I want to keep him, please mommy?'
Sophie caught the passing glance from her step father, a big fellow with no hair. He sat at the table reading the paper and occasionally shoved forkfuls of curry into his mouth.
Sophie's mother passed a confirmation glance at her husband Eddie before the plate that he was eating off hit the wall.
CRASH!
'That fuckin shit Cat ain't livin under ma bloody roof!' Eddie stood up, face red like a whoopee cushion.
'Ed, please.' Begged Sophie's mother, shielding her daughter.
Eddie reached for her throat, and not for the first time. She was frail enough as it was without this. 'Who tha spit ya talkin to? Ya fuckin hooker, I run this house! Not you, and not that little bitch over there!'
'Mommy!' Cried Sophie screaming.
Eddie turned his anger towards the stray Cat that Sophie had found in the woods. It cowered from him, hissing from beneath the table.
'Ello shit Cat, come to ya uncle Ed. Ill twist ya cuntin neck!'
The black Cat scratched out at Eddie, and then made a dash for the kitchen window which was slightly a jar.
'Pissing thing, glad it's gone. Right, I'm going the flippin pub. Don't wait up!'
Sophie clung on to her mother as she stroked her throat, they were at peace once more.
That night Sophie sat at her window wondering where her new friend was. Her Mother lay weeping into a pillow, a pillow that had cushioned her face during rape, more than once from her husband. She missed her own mother, which forged her to raise Sophie well. Sophie could hear her mother, she knew she should never venture into the woods. Not in October. Strange things happen in October, bad things. She remembered her grandmother before she passed away, and of all the tales that she told. Like the one about the Witch who lived deep in those woods, the Witch who helped rid the town of murders and rapists many years ago. Sophie slid into her bed and curled up, she struggled to sleep that night. This night could be like many others, when a stepfather comes in drunk and does things to a little girl that no father should ever do.
'That's the sound of the men...working on the train...gang...hic'
Eddie sang as he staggered along the old dirt road from Abbots bar. Six double whiskeys, three pints and five bottles of Budweiser were enough to make him happy. The large man wrestled with the idea of taking a shortcut. After reassuring himself that 'he ain't scared of trees,' he entered the plum forest.
His twisted mind somehow put up pedophile images of lustful pleasures, regarding his step daughter. So what, he thought? His father did it to him, so whats the harm, right?
An owl brought him back to the forest, he shouted at the darkness.
'Fuckin birds, kill ya, lot of ya!'
He stumbled over a branch and hit the forest floor, the leaves stuck to him like vacuum fluff. That's when he saw it.
His blurry vision held him back, but he got to his feet.
'Now I'm gona get ya. lickle shite.'
It was a black Cat. Like the one Sophie had found, sitting by a tree as black as the night. Two green eyes was all that Eddie could make out, but he knew it was the one. Almost as if laughing at him the Cat began licking his paw.
Eddie fumbled around the undergrowth until he found a stone. But it was too late.
A fatal swipe had found it's mark on Eddie's throat, he clutched at the stinging wounds. They burned like very hot water and he gasped for air. He could hear very light steps around him, he was scared now and turning constantly. His eyes did their best to make out the dark. He heard a hiss and started to run.
He didn't know which direction he was headed in, a loud 'meow' froze him to the spot. He suddenly felt something brush past his leg so he kicked out. Then a sharp pain consumed his entire shin.
'ARR!'
Eddie was down yet again, he made a crawl for it. He could see the black Cat strolling along side him. There were lights up ahead, he was getting hopeful. The pain was excruciating, he guessed that the Cat had bit into his shin. Another swipe grazed Eddies forehead, this time barley missing his eyes. He began to smell his own blood. He fought on towards the lights which appeared to be a cabin. In his unfit state, his mind managed to conceive the fact that he had never seen this cabin before, despite hunting in these woods. The Cat urinated into Eddie's eyes. The stinging wastage blurred his iris and caused fast flicker blinking, there was no time for his thinking.
Eddie felt a hand on his cheek, and a voice. An old lady's voice. 'Relax now my son, you have to pay for your sins. Onyx, be done with him.'
The Cat pounced onto Eddie's face removing his nose with it's sharp claws. The swipes were like that of a kung fu expert, swift and fast.
'HEEELLLP MEEE!'
Blood had covered what was left of Eddies face and leaves stuck to his exposed flesh. His screams fell faint as his last breath was removed by the Witch's broom, lodged deep down into his windpipe. It was dark once more, no cabin, no Cat, no Eddie.
Weeks had come and gone and Eddie was on milk cartons all across town. Another addition to the missing persons list, except he won't be missed. Sophie sat on the bench and watched her mother put some flowers on her Grandmothers grave. A black Cat appeared from behind the headstone, it brushed up against her.
'Sophie, Your friends back.'
Sophie ran over pulling off her little blue cotton gloves, she stroked the Cat which purred back at her. 'Mommy, what's this tag say?'
Her mother studied the silver tag, 'I didn't notice this tag before Sophie. Is it the same Cat?'
Sophie looked at the green eyes smiling back, 'Yes, mommy. I'm sure!'
Well his name is Onyx, darling.' Replied her mother tickling Onyx's chin.
Sophie clapped her hands, 'I like Onyx. Can we keep him mommy?'
'As long as he's not owned, yes my darling, we can most certainly keep him.'
Sophie hugged her mother. Who seemed to frown in thought.
'Funny that Sophie. I'm sure your grandmother once had a Cat named Onyx...'

Thursday, 2 October 2008

SUICIDE...


So, your in that horrible place that continues to rape the fucking life from you. Nobody truly understands this pain but you. They possibly can't. You are all alone and hate the very reflection of the emptiness that you have become. You fail to see a way out from this hole, it's endless. You fail to see that you are a success, because it was your fathers sperm that fertilized the egg. You conquered the uterus. You made it out against all the other sperm cells and came first. You love your family but choose to turn to a razor blade, or a noose for reasoning. You search for uncovered answers that may complete your puzzle. You fail to recognize that with your last breath, your parents have failed all this time. You are out of it, but your families just began. You create your own ending, so others have their beginnings. Fuck it anyway, you have been there all along, only you. You assess and ponder, watching the rain watching you right back through a gloomy pane. You have thought long and hard, and know whats right in your heart of hearts. You feel ready now don't you? Psyched up, no one knows whats coming, you will show them. It's time.

TRY TALKING TO THIS HAND!


There they go again with the verbal pigeon mess. A p*** take in it's honest form, pure and untampered. So, this is their true colours then? Liers, the lot of them, they deserve to burn. Who handed the right of god over for their dirty hands to molest. Filth sprayers. I'm on to you, I am the predator, and don't you forget that.
It's a shame you feel that way, the manner in which you act. The way in which you carry out your frustration. Don't give them lore energy to grow. Instead take it away from them, make them feel weaker...so there's two options...
Let them beat you, or
Talk to the hand.

Wednesday, 1 October 2008

TIMMY part one

Hello there readers. My name is Timmy, yes, that's me in the photo. As you can see I'm a Vampire Bat, though not a nasty one. Truth is I'm born into a family of carnivorous Bats, with a thirst for human blood. Our breed are very rare and we can talk, this could help me survive. Sadly one month ago my Ma and Pa and baby sister were slaughtered by my two older step brothers, Jasper and Clyde. They didn't look kindly on our kind not being vicious like them. I managed to get away and have flew from San Fran Sisco, across Italy and am now hanging about in Brum. I have to keep running as my step brothers are hunting for me and will kill me. I watched them chew the eye lids off an old lady outside the post office just the other day. I actually live off fruit, so you can call me a mixed up fruit Bat. I hope that I can be safe in the hands of you readers out there, can I? I am only ten years old in Bat years, so I'm just a baby. Well, got to fly now peeps, they will be getting closer.
I'm so frightened...

SOMETIMES I FEEL AS IF I HAVE A FACE BURSTING THROUGH THE REAR OF MY HEAD



My inner self fights for it's undeserved freedom, begging me to unleash it's squirm on all humanity. The pain causes headaches that split through my skull cavities, pressing my internal energy around my being and out onto paper. I write, write as so to express myself. He knows my every thought and movement. I cannot hide from him, he is always there. Watching, spying, seeking. We were born together and will die together, he is my best friend, my closest enemy. If only I could let him out to chat to, instead of him tormenting me with his wit and skill. He is as deep as I and as strong, he knows when I'm lying, and telling the truth. He's forcing, ordering me to press these keys to my PC. I'm quite jealous of him and at the same time proud to have him. He gets all the girls! This complex side we all have, this darkness...
Now I know he's taken over for October, I am Duane Emsley no more. Ive become enauD yelsmE. He has made me very popular though I must say, so that can't be a bad thing?