12 MONTHS OF DUST (last blog of September)

The year has passed so sudden, and you wonder about the time. You think about this last section of your life, good and the bad. You decide not to wait for new years to begin resolutions. You forgive all factors including you, you recreate your entire being and unleash something extremely powerful and gifted. The world will do your bidding and you know it.

CAN YOU TOUCH THE SUN?

So you are in that place, its cold and uncomfortable. This draws you to indulge in your comforts. That's okay though, as long as you don't quit. You have to realise how far you have come in your life, the little things along the way. You get a sense of yourself, you are somebody, people like you. You might not gel with everyone, but that's just life. You tread forwards reminding yourself to hold your head high, you can do it. Nettles and branches try to hold you back, trying to keep you where you are. If you make that choice to stay put you have lost, and the weaker you has won. Then you'll always be weak. But your not weak your strong. You push the obstacles away from your face, creating a path for you to follow. You can't wait to get through this nightmare, so you can be free. The slippery surface underfoot inclines, again testing your determination. But you are to ambitious, to tough. You visualise your goal, you remain focused. Side line emotions will trick you to wonder off course, if you let them. They are not your friend just the darker side of you. You concentrate and think of all the people that love you, who you want to make proud. That's what got you here in the first place, trying to please others? Now you forge on for you, you scream at yourself for treating you with neglect. You make best friends with yourself for ever. You can taste inner peace, and it feels lovely. Well done, you made it and there's no turning back.

STILL WATERS RUN DEEP...

I was placed into this life under the symbol of the Scorpion, I am the eight sign in the Zodiac. I'll clear this make believe view up here and now for the sceptics. I don't follow the planets and I don't go by everything I read. However, along the way I have noticed that certain star signs can be typical of what they are stated as. Now, whoever came to these conclusions I don't know. But it's safe to acknowledge that it stems from methodical times, geek and Latin. I was later to learn though, that there are three types of Scorpio.

Lizard: Is a nasty piece of work, sly cruel and the lowest crook.

Scorpion: Is pure, and travels an even plane.

Eagle: The most noble one who has found spiritual enlightenment, and rises from the ashes like the Phoenix. (My other creature)

Obviously I'm working hard to retain my place an an eagle. But I do have a dark side. I have Pluto which is the planet of mystery, death ,birth, sex and regeneration. And Mars which is the god of war.

POSITIVE TRAITS: Resourceful, caring, advisable, researcher, determined, passionate, hard working, resilient, patient, careful, planner, creative, imagionative, deep thinker, fair.

NEGATIVE TRAITS: Ruthless, cunning, private, shy, vindictive, vengeful, sensitive, views life as black and white, extreme, wreck less, over indulges, misunderstood, self fish, hot tempered.

I know this can be everyone, so I'm only writing what I know and have read. Some of it is true, the rest I'll keep to myself.

Here's some for my fan's.

EARTH SIGNS:

Taurus-leader of the earth signs, practical, earthy , patient, careful, stubborn, loving.

Capricorn-Good sense of humour enjoys activities like rambling etc, hard working

Virgo- Fussy about themselves and can hold a good argument, many footballers are Virgo's.

FIRE SIGNS:

Leo- leader of the fire signs, bold, artistic, generous, warm, fun, shy?

Aries- Impatient, risk taker, quick tempered, warm friend, fun.

Sagittarius- Sporty, fearless, comedian, writer, stubborn

AIR SIGNS:

Aquarius- Leader of the air signs, creative, friendly, individual, honest, comical, opinionated, intelligent.

Gemini- Clever, communicator, puzzle solver, kind, duel taskful, laid back, sensitive temper

Libra- Romantic, creative, fun loving, indecisive, unreliable.

WATER SIGNS:

Scorpio- Leader of the water signs, has Pluto n Mars as planets...

Pieces- Dreamy, imaginative, subtle

Cancer- Homemaker, caring, sensitive, strong.

It's down to you to decide if you want to believe. I know that I only have to look at a Scorpions behaviour to know, that I am peaceful and private until disturbed...

MARTIAL SPIRIT

Sensei bows to us and asks us to pick a partner. Our Gi's are already soaked through and we are gasping for air. I note my blood gushing through my meridians like hose pipe water, my muscles warm and ready. I face Nigel as he attacks without warning. I retreat back at an angle, knowing he will pursue. I change direction quickly avoiding his speedy back fist. I defend decently against his attacks and then watch his eyes and waist for the next flurrying encounter. I counter back with some artillery of my own, as I work out a way to defeat him. The cat n mouse changes and Sensei tells us to switch stances and partners. I jog to Andy and let him have some. He pays me back royally and I extinguish the feeling of not been as good as last week. Maybe they are improving? Jack faces me with a warm grin and a reverse punch which nearly reintroduces me to my toast. I focus on my footwork and I settle down, god this feels great. I love this moment it is safe and free of everything, we are one family. I turn to greet Craig with a side kick, love that kick. Finally when were done fighting we move on to push ups between chairs and Kata practice. I've had a good workout, but need to do more homework.

NEVER 29 AGAIN

One month left until the age 29 leaves me forever, it is a sad feeling with a sense of happiness. It is in fact me who leaves this age behind, to banish in the clusters of past years. I metamorphose to the age of 30, regretting things that I haven't achieved yet. What's this? I cease and rotate my intergalactic plane of thought, radaring in on the things that I have fulfilled so far. I'm winning not losing. It takes commitment, drive and focus, I have all this and more. I'm unique, I can only get better and better, you just see if I don't, I can't wait till I'm 30!

THE DAY'S EXPECTATIONS

Great, it's Saturday today but why am I feeling weighted down? You can count on people's negative energy casting a shadow over yourself. I must see through this and forge on. I must be brave, and be a man. I hope that I'm wrong and today's visitors don't make me feel too bad. I don't like my feelings at times, but that's all part of being human. Negativity must knock a several times before I allow him to enter my domain, if ever I do.

SHER TAN (Hoan Lung Tutorial's)

I have an online Sifu now. As well as practising different Martial Arts, and a Blue Belt grading hunting me November in Karate. I'm really enjoying this flowing Chi training, although it's hard to grasp. My bodies flushing itself out and returning to a purer state of existence. I move at my own pace allowing myself to absorb the body mechanics and economy in movement. I'm becoming a Snake, a White Crane. When I feel low I'll train, soon I sweat and the moment of martial consumes me. I get lost in this happening, and all of life's problems are pushed to the rear of my brain. After I cool down the problems wait for me, but I meet them in a better state. I feel uplifted from my fears. I conquer, I overcome...I relax.